saturday,
geez today was for me, far too much free time in a snow storm... don't like it.. don't like unregimented time......... ick. i watched pieces parts of tv shows that i think upon further viewing might make me jump out a window. thank god for the omen. carolyn said to me " how many times can you watch that" and i said as long as there is shit on tv i will watch it.
so it seems that until forever if the omen is on i'm watching it... nice to at least have some time booked for the future.
ALLOW ME TO TAKE TIME TO WISH A SUPER HAPPY BIRFDAY TO MY N'WORD LAURIE..... I HOPE THE WEEKEND OF CELEBRATION WAS GRAND you deserve it... and i appreciate all that you do.
lets see... uhhhhhhhhhh
whatever,
i remain thea
countdown to the last assholierthanthou..... 1 day.
talk to you,
hang in there,
thea

t.g.i.f.f. thank g. its fucking friday.
not that i have a "partying" weekend planned i'm just glad to be rid of this week.
manana.. i will work early at "the berry" then off to the east side for a rendezvous with a chum.... perhaps.
sunday... i work at the down town 'berry in the computer learning center 2nd floor... i'm pretty pumped about it.. i don't know why but i think i'll like it there. later sunday i'll go to the chris / band show - you're saying "gee thea you really don't go to shows much anymore why the sudden turn around?" - welp, a.) the last time chris played in this incarnation i arrived late and felt like a shit bag b.) its in the friggin hood.. a.k.a. mine hood and that makes it sooooo much sweeter... a 10 minute drive versus the half hour.. i'll take it any time.. if i could get bands to play at the MITCHELL'S ice cream shop - all the better.
i'll look forward to speaking to you all later,
perchance you'll be at the show.
i remain,
thea

wednesday/thursday 2005 + 19/20
its late wednesday.
it was a long day full of travel for me...
i got up... headed out to work.. just before the highway i realized i forgot mine handbag (shit!!!) turned around.. made the call to say where i was........ got back in gear only to realize that the snow/visibility on the shoreway was such that people were moving very very veeeeeeeeeeerrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy slowly... anyhow got to work.. had to immediately turn around with fellow staff member to head out to funeral / family reception in shaker....... the drive... awful.. did we get lost a little of course. we arrive..

i can't explain having to feel/be a part of sooo much agony. son of a bitch. awful.. and you know how when you're in the line and you're like doing breating excercises and like trying to focus and saying "i'm cool i can totally keep it together".. but suddenly you're confronted with a father and mother who are so immersed in pain and you're "i'm cool" goes out the window and you're a weeping idiot....---- yeah well i fell apart - shit i hate that but in the situation.. there is seriously nothing left but base human grief. i remain sooo sorry for this family.. shit.
anyhow
i'm going to bed
to sleep perchance to dream.
please take care of yourselves,
bbfea

tuesday 2005 + 18
i'm having difficulty knowing what day it is due to the monday holiday.. feels like a wednesday but not so.
today was semi-wasteful but o.k. it was wasteful by choice.. (did i ever tell you about the gigantic horsefaced woman who taught my senior year religion class - it was intended to be a morality class of sorts... i guess as risque as a catholic girls school would get.. anyhow this gigantic hideous horse face lady comes in day 1 and says "hi i'm karen x. and i'm celibate by choice!" dudes if you could've seen this woman there was no choice in the matter... the remainder of the year suffice it to say everything we did we announced as "i'm thea and i'm taking spanich III by choice!") a story apropos of nothing... but thanks for your indulgence.
other then that... manana i have a funeral to attend in the a.m. then work to kill in the afternoon then an abbreviated day at the berry. sweet. however i just realized i must schedule my training for a different department at the down town berry before my shift on sunday... perhaps friday will due. whatever... i look forward to it. actually i am amazed but not saying anything... i picked up my pay stub from friday, today and it appears that my vacation/sick time has tripled.. how? dunno. why? dunno. questioning - no way. so theres something to look forward to many paid days off..
welp, i'm going to bed.
dream well,
thea

saturday new year plus 15/16
its just past midnight.
* i'm tired
* i made a wish on what turned out to be an air plane tonight.. i'm not holding my breath.
* watched a SS series on the hitler channel
* also watched the movie garden state.. i wasn't moved or impressed it was, to me, an artsy afterschool special.
*i work at the down town berry tomorrow
* its too cold
* my house is too cold
* spencer stopped by today - thank g.
* i ate spaghetti
* went out friday night... don't think i'll be doing that any more... its like wearing good looking pants that cause a horrible rash.. ya just gotta quit wearin the pants
* i'm going to bed
g'night dream well,
me