good morning and happy tuesday to ye all.
what a great day... why? because my freedom from the regular job begins..ohhhh now. yes i have to go in for a while more here and there for no set amount of time to wrap crap up but thats it man over and out. graduation was yesterday. nice. there are youths that i will dearly miss and whom i adore- so propers to them. then chris and i went to the HIVES show... at the beachland securityballroom. missed the jap band moonie sazuki, saw the turks, however it was soo hot and full like jam packed with humanity that it was virtually impossible to enjoy... The review will find it's way to the review section soon. look for it. had fun though, drank - i don't want to say too much because i feel fine but enough to where i think i laughed tooo much at to little. oh well.
now for the disturbance in my home right now....
i truly believe my subconscious is using the telephone and calling me... and because i don't answer the phone it waits till my machine picks up the mumbles stuff.... then hangs up... then waits an hour or so then calls gets the machine again and yelled "wake up" then hung up. so when i woke up i went down stairs and checked the machine which flashed 0 messages. weird.
- also i'm stalking a neighborhood cat "skinny" i want him. he's got a real now, wow, with it look and i simply must make friends and get him into the fold.
today:
maybe clifton arts thing. - it always reminds me of a great photo i bought there.. it was a black and white picture of a stormy ocean with a giant black cat face in the sky (super imposed i'm sure with photo trickery). loved it looked like nova ruling the ocean... which she could, were she not so busy resting.
maybe shopping - chris needs slaxxxxx. i need cat food. and a magic wand.
who knows the day is just begun.
i work tomorrow - but so what. i'll talk to you all monday from the show. keep in touch and have a most excellent day!!!
i remain a friend for future decades,
thea

hi gang,
today, tuesday a complete non day. if i had a nickle for everytime i had to say "what day is it again?" i'd have at least .50!! how nice would a bonus fifty cents be.
i have a new odd routine.. in the pursuit of sleep.. i come home from work.... make the greatest salad type dinner ever... watch taped soap operas.. then i like to hit the rack for a solid 2 or 3 hours then i wake up and go for a walk...come home, have some juice, watch some bogus tv and then go to bed. i like it. and i don't like it. my daily schedule is about to change anyway so re-vamping is on the agenda.

yesteray i thought i was bloggless.
i'm back.
yesterday i was easily in the worst most foul cranky mood ever or at least of this year. i began to have empathy for those people who crash their cars through fast food restaurant windows and start shooting.... thankfully my love of heinens, won't allow me to kill anyone there... how could i go back and get my low fat turkey.
it was a day where the breathing of others pissed me off. people moved things on my bulletin board and i wanted to stab them in the neck, children came in and were sincerely wanting to know if there was anything they could do to help .... again thankfully, i couldn't say what i was thinking, "yea why don't you drop out of school so i don't ever have to look at your stupid face again - idiot". i have things due at work this friday (last day) these things sicken me.... they were "tweaked" by someone on staff and this person is NOT FUNNY nor should this person try to be funny..... be bland its you!!.. anyhow it is my duty to find a kind way to say "i shant do this task/put my name on the creation of it - if you insist on these assenine "quips" fuck you" i actually threw the papers across the room several times when thinking about having to make this project my own. can't do it. not funny. can't fathom it. lets see... it was a piss fest what else... oh yea someone kept calling my home yesterday and hanging up on the machine... mom? don't do it. i had some mighty road rage. my cat franny hit me in the head because "big orange" was outside and she was ticked off.
good things about yesterday:
grapes
peonies
walking at night
soup
the cats (forgiving frannys moment)
have a fun day everyone and count down the days till summer break with me!!!!
later,
thea

i never put things in a cohesive manner so please read along and do your best:
i worked today. i made a nice sum of $$. i got extra money from my new partner "dumpy". don't ask. on the idea of disecting happiness... i'm still on this one... for my own gratification i'm trying to figure it out now....
so for me todays happiness rested in a 15-20 minute span that was spent out doors around 9:30p.m. not doing anything in particular... just living in the amazing night that it was. and oddly that was enough.
Happiness on a Saturday night
warm evening
first butterfly of spring
sun burn
a good salad
sitting on my glider
finding "Unforgiven " on t.v. when i come in
setting up coffee for tomorrow
showering with my pink soap
clean p.j.'s
going to sleep..with the windows open.
these are just tiny moments/bits of what ='s happiness to me.. and when i take them and put them together i am a happy person. how about that.. i've spent sooo much time painting myself as the orniry, cranky, unhappy cuss but in actuality... things are kinds good. although the.. "i am a woman and i'm angry... I am an angry woman" schitck works for me.... so you've been let in on a secret. .. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh don't tell a soul.
later gators
thea