mr. baby fea. mine imaginary husband. it almost looks like he's thinking about proposing to me doesn't it? 

t.g.i.f
yes yes thank you g. its friday.
today was from the viewpoint of 10:44 p.m. at home... a loonnnng day prior to this i may have said it went quickly or something but now..just seems tediously long.

outside of that..
things i believe in:
* no caller i.d. - who doesn't like a suprise. don't answer the phone.
* looking for and hoping for the best for people - even when it bites you in the ass.
* french toast
* right place at the right time
* unlikely friends
* beating down the retarded if they eyeballin yo man.."slow or not i'll take the bitch out"
* robin williams playing a retard in a new movie - i may not see it but i love the celebrity retard
* stella doro breakfast treats
* my sad over admiration and attraction to the dreamers of the universe who have such great aspirations and the will to follow through....
* love of squirrellllls
* una
* how tired i am right now
okey dokey on that note its a bale of water and the electric blanket for me
hasta la'bye bye
carrot cake left in the fridge at work....
i forgot to enjoy my cake - shit
you know i love you
i remain
ms. honkey

wednesday
1/2 way through it. yessssssss!
i have a ripping headache right now. just took some advil so pray with me for a quick recovery.
so seriously whats with the bullshit weather. gimme some heat damnitt! heeaaat.
so work today was kinda good - both of 'em. busy though. but i guess it made time fly. i christened a little boy at the library with a new nickname that seems to be working out well.. his name is julian (he looks like a miniature grown man) anyhow he is now called NOXEMA. some girl had some and he was stinking up the library with it yesterday.. so today when he came in he is NOXEMA. i also wrestled a little little boy to the ground for fun.. i wanted him to write a poem for my kids poetry contest (april is national poetry month- happy poetry month everyone!!) and when he said he didn't feel like it i grabbed him and put him down.... he got up and said "you should be ashamed of yourself".. he is soooo cute - he's the one we send messages to on the computer and have convinced they're coming from people downtown watching from hidden cameras..(that don't exist) that we send him to wave to. kids are fun.
-- i got to see Una today... she may be nuts. but i guess babies are allowed to be -
of course got to see the WELK (CAROLYN!!!) she's great. missed the pixx though - the gruff but loveable peach of a man.
oh well i think it would be best if i took this headache to bed now - it may require the healing medicinal powers only the monkey blanket can provide and some water.
i'm worried about teddy spaghetti... where is you at?
oh well - cake man...do it.
love love love
thea

thank you god!  

happy monday everybody!!
the two greatest words in the world were phoned in to me this a.m. around 7:15 and those words would be : SNOW DAY!!!
aaawwwwhhh hell yeah. there truly needed to be a purpose to all this jive horse shit weather and G. came correct today with a SNOW DAY in april. how magnificent. big ups to ma'lord g. for that one.
so yeah this a.m. was pretty/very low key and i loved it... it was the perfect follow up to my sunday (yes whole day) off! what did i accomplish? nothing more then regaining some feeling of being a human being and not a space automoton being run into the ground by the man. and that my friends was worth it.
lets seee.... last week was trying...and worrisome.... i don't like being attached to people that i worry about.. and yet i attach ma'self. i think it a sickness.. but you find something in people sometimes that is at its core very good and real and true and there you go. i made a friend at the liberry who i am worried about. but i'll of course pray things will be fine and i think that and my support and whatever is all i can do.
work has been pretty o.k... i was kind of an emotional pms wreck last week...i think i even got teary a coupla times - i think it was the awesome pms + over work combo plate that was doing me in. i'm better now.
i watched the movie "sideways."... anyone else see it? what did you all think? i know people who said it was the greatest movie ever. i know people who said it sucked. i liked it.. i would reccommend it to chris based solely on the box calling it "DELICIOUSLY BITTERSWEET" and that it was. i don't know if your all familiar with the movie but there are no nazi's in it or battle scenes with giant hammers - so it suffered in that regard but paul giamatti (how do you spell his name) was funny.
what else what else. my legs look like someone kicked the shit out of me with high heels on.. i don't know where i got these bruises.
casino was on this afternoon.. thats always a treat.
and on that note...
oh no wait heres something else i wanted to say...does anyone watch that "whose line is it anyway?" SKETCH comedy show... i fucking hate that shit you wanna know whose line it is... its mine and i say "FUCK YOU - YOU STINK" this has been grating on ma'nerves for a while and i keep passing it..ughhhhhhhhh. just glad to get that out!!
off to bed. i've been having weird dreams lately not crazy killer dreams where i'm being chased and soap opera stars are there.. no thats carolyn - just strange.
g'night everybody.
enjoy the hell out of your cake - you must.
love
me