this is an accurate picture of me at present

its saturday roctober 11 year 0

so here's whats fun about PMS (and don't even give me the "t.m.i." deal with it)? the answer: NOTHING

i'm just talking about the being emotionally hypersensitive lets see i had to judge a talent contest at the liberry and sure i cried when a young lad sang so beautifully. will i hear about it from the teens here forever - yep. and today i had to help this lady apply for jobs online... she was not computer saavy, she was frustrated and teary, her husband is about to have surgery that may render him wheelchair bound so i'm helping her apply and as she is over thanking me i start to get teary. jesus christ bbfea pull it together you blubbering mess. better not go home and watch lifetime movies or i'll end up with my head i the oven.

on that positive note

i'm going to go do something here then i will go to either steelyard commons or avon whatever to do my targeting. the weather today is beautiful.

ps: i used the last bit of $ on my subwar card and i got a chicken breast sandwich (because my subway doesn't let you get turkey for $5) anyhoo the chicken started to feel/taste dogfoody to me and i vomited. i might just as well have thrown the giftcard in the toilet.

happy saturday

me

yeah i shoulda applied for that job

thank you sweeeeet jesus for putting a cap in this weeeks ass finally.

friday roctober 10 year 0

i've got 52 minutes of work left and i can be released to my home.

i can't wait. this week has been long and arduous. the kind of week that makes your soul feel like it was kicked in the balls.

so i say onward to next week. it has to get better.

hey anyone out there want to discuss regret. yeah i passed up a single full time job that pays double my school salary. and i would only be working 1 job for normal hours not 12 hour days. why because i am a chicken.. there i said it i am afraid of change and now i feel like an idiot. some one should counsel me here.... i need some social working.

now i'm trying to figure out what to have for dinner.... i still have some $ on my subway giftcard so it's looking like a turkey sandwich.

oh well have an enjoyable weekend. extra good if you're off monday for columbus day - sadly i'm off one job but not the other. boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oh well

later

me

hey do i have to work tomorrow?

tuezday roctober 7, year 0

i am sitting here at the liberry giving myself diahreahhhh via stressing about stuff. i am literally shaking - and sick to my stomach. its not sexy or fun.

-- i can't stand it. i don't want to go to work tomorrow. please don't make me go to work tomorrow. someone call me in sick god knows i'll have diahrreahhhha.

--- i had my salad with a little avacado in it - so delish.

--- my friend cheryl here at the liberry has a lavish recipe book on her desk.. i put post-it tabs on all the pages i want her to make for me. she was like "oh do you want a copy of these recipes" i'm all like "what am i gonna do with that... i'd rather you just make 'em".

--- oh well i'm too ill to continue writing

bye

you know you want me- c'mon email thea

t.b.i.m. ugghhhhhh roctober 6, year 0

soooooooooooooo its monday how bad does that suck? pretty bad.

well needless to say i'm here at the berry ticking out the time till i'm done.

things to look forward to:

* friday

* the avacado in my fridge

* showing the kids parts of the series ROME as they are reading Julius Cesear

* turning on my electric blanket

* getting a doctors appointment

* the next sunday i work ($$ does buy happiness don't let anyone tell you otherwise)

* is it too soon to say christmas break

* being off the birthday run - i have a slight reprieve from birthday purchases

* speaking of : the arrival of the welks birfday gift... its opulent can't wait to give it to her

i suppose thats it pretty much the avacado is taking center stage.

HEY SERIOUS QUESTION FOR ANY RESPONSIBLE READERS:

does anyone want a weiner dog? seriously the lady i work with has been feeding 3 of them in her nieghborhood - evidentally the (asshole) family moved away and left the dogs in an abandoned house. so think about it - who doesn't want a little weiner dog.. sooooo cute.

email me immediately if you are interested and are not a known scumbag.

---i'm in quite a bit of pain right now. according to summa care health nurse line - you should always go to the emergency. bullshit. last time i went for essentially nothing it cost me oohhhh $900. and that is what they suggest for everying .. if you have dandruff you should immediately go to the emergency room. that last time i went (for nothing) i was literally told by the help nurse to "hang up the phone and call an ambulance" - get real. i will die in my home before i go to the emergency room again.

---- oh well

talk at you all later

moi

"thank you for choosing the peoples university

goooooood evening"

sunday roctober somethin year 0

i'm here at the downtown liberry workin in the history dept. its been fine - only 40 minutes to go..... i've been stuck at the know it now desk. usually tedious but at least it keeps time moving. i believe i did all the research for one person who wrote in... i think i had to find info about :

5 individuals

2 battles

1 conference

history of relations b/w taiwan and china

operation chromite

and a few other items... we were online together for 33 minutes thats long for know it now... i think the word "now" sounds quick and usually these questions can be answered in an average time of 3 minutes. also i must have gotten all the emails from kids/students in the same class alot of requests for

* shawnee indian culture

* burbon kings and absolutism

*korean war

so at least i was already familiar with where to go.. no curveballs.

--- although my bro emailed me - (he was gonna try to see if he could ask a question and get me on line) but he decided to ask about arthur treachers restaurants.... he couldn't believe he was taken seriously. well, we have to - although alot of the time you feel like you may be getting punked.

it is f...ing freeeeeezin this this hizzzouse. damn.

-i'm thinking i need to see a doctor - too bad since my coverage change i don't have one.. never got around to picking one out. not good.

--- i just saw tony from my branch down here.. gots to go where da'money is.

----- had a nice birfday for carolyn at the welkarian compound. dinnner - dq cake- crazy children... i must say i love when mia yells "mygoobuddy" to me.

--i truly dread work this week .... not dread i just don't want to go.... across the board no thank you.

----went to the old navy yesterday to snatch up on some sale stuff. i did o.k. nothing fantastical.

i just realized when going through my sweater box upstairs (doing the seasonal rotation) of my sweaters i think i wear 2 out of 10 of them, and then there are the ones i loved and shrank, so i'm due for some stuff... actually i'd like to go to unique thrift store and see what i can find... thats the best place for sweaters. when will i have the time to go however?

---- i also need a hairdid - badly - note to self call marilyn a.s.a.p.

--- my cat franny needs a hairdid too.... she's not taking good care

--- i should have worn my thox today

----- i am also starvin like marvin -

----- had a delicious char grilled tuna salad yesterday... oooh doggie that was good.

---i burned the roof of my mouth on chili the other day.... bogusness

----- sue, joel and i got our tickets for said comedy show... psyched. although i think we're in the nosebleed section but who cares its not like a rock show or somethin. it'll be fun - i like having something to look forward to. other then stress stomach aches and diahhhreah.

----going on 20 minutes left - i wonder if it is appropriate for me to shut off the know it now thingie? - i'm gonna.

--- i just perused the chat history in know it now. people had written in to ask "what color are your underwear" and make statements like "i am fat". fantastic. why couldn't i have gotten them?

----- i'm still trying to get the security dept to let me be the recorded voice of the library- the one that makes the recorded messages like "the library will be closing in 5 minutes please take any materials to the check out desk on the first floor. goooood eeeeevening." the current recording sound a little like dracula. i really want it. i am the recorded voice for the fleet branch if you call after hours. i tried to sound ultra zippy and then end on an earnest note. it basically just sounds goofy.

oh well i'm gonna go shut stuff down and wait for dracula to say "gooooooood evening"

later

moi