hi again, it's late friday night... somebody please remind me why i hate working friday nights... geeeeeez what a bunch of low grade fags. i have a recurrent mantra in my head it goes "your life is garbage"... tonight did nothing to disuade that. i feel i am repellant.
see you saturday,
thea

hello and happy friday.
today at work i actually did more nothing then nothing.. i think i may have done enough nothing to cancel out work done in the past... but i feel rested and good about it. you just have those days. anyhow i am trying to get myself ready (mentally) to go to work tonight.. go tribe or whatever. i guess all i'm praying to god for right now is the strength to get through this evening without killing myself or someone else and to leave the bar by midnight. then big plans for saturday.... for a change of pace - i'll get up and go back down to the bar to work the double header...but i've scheduled myself for the early shift so i hope to be out by 5:00 (hear that jesus - 5:00 p.m.) then who knows... maybe i'll "kick it" with mr. & mrs. sinner or the flying v's or maybe i'll stay at home. then i've sort of blacked out my sunday because i'm not sure if i have to work and i'm not sure i want to be so aware. then sure enough it'll be monday again... abbreviated week for me we have 1/2 a day friday because its PROM!!! then i think i've got 9 or so days of work left till i'm free at last free at last.....
i hope you all have excellent plans for the weekend... shitty as the weather is, i'll be wishing you well and we'll catch up on monday!
thea

SAW SPIDERMAN LAST NIGHT - look for a review coming to your "friendly neighborhood WEBsite".
happy thursday to you all - i woke up certain that it was friday even though i had a dream that i got to work at the bar and they were like "hey you don't come in till friday... tomorrow" and i was elated to have another day. so i'll work on that principle for today..... it is one more day. i got suckered into working friday.. the most loathesome bar night of all.... but i do love the $$. other then that life goes on... i work saturday afternoon, maybe sunday i don't forsee any major plans but i'll keep you all apprised. that said, i wish you all the best for this rainy day and keep in touch.
i remain a friend indeed.
thea

it occurs to me that a few blogs ago i said i would share some of my haiku's from the archives.. do they suck? yep. are they drippy? yep. do you care? no not really. so here are some of them:

8/22/98
So beyond belief
my whole life goes numb
is this day over?

Adding up mistakes
subtracting all my losses.
what do i have left.

8/29
Disjointed slow day
doing so much of nothing
my life is too long.

dedicated
Settle for no less
then the brilliance that is you
enchanting and good.

3/19/00
More anxiety
I feel my life collapsing
with nowhere to go.

3/21/00
filled with warmth and light
one of lifes nomadic tribes
in and out of me.

3/24/00 (to chris)
Foot firmly in mouth
I swallow burning poison
of my hurtfulness.

3/24/00
Energy of life
fast movement of ideas
fine and glorious.

3/31/00
Resounding loud "yes!"
The sun seems brighter today
light pours from the sky.

5/3/00
moving along now
making small strides on my own
i'm sure i'll be fine.

5/30/00 HOUSES AND HOLES
What do i do now?
swimming in circles of blue
start..end.. start...end...

10/15/01
Clarity arrived
and rested on my shoulder
whispering "now see".

3/27/01
Long hours spent walking
the yellow glow of street lights
softly guide my way.

3/24/01 rubylove
I saw her leaving
softly quietly going
off to sleep to dream.

8/21/98 for chris
together we rock
divided we are nothing
world domination

i guess that's about it for now...i've cut out some of the super drippy overly romantic, sappy ones to spare you all the nausea. Thank you for your kindness and please don't email me to make fun i know they're dumb.
hope your lives are swingin'
miss you
thea - drop me a line.

Hi it's sunday night...
i've had a great weekend. with no actual great events transpiring.
1. the aforementioned monkey... #1
2. saturday ... tooling around with chris just goofing off i guess - that's fun
3. hangin with carolyn and sam - awesome
4. i acquired a glider for the porch.. i now sit outside and glide to - and fro and to and fro.... love it.
5. sunday went on the greatest walk of all time ( or one of them) this is my new route and i'm happy - thank you uncle emerald.
6. the simple joy of good cereal. never underestimate a good cereal.
7. chit - chat with a friend on the phone whilst on the glider.
8. a sunday night shower.... with the pink soap that i love.
9. landlord promises screen door!!! cats rejoice.
10. just loving the weather.
later guys,
i remain your friend indeed.