t.g.i.f.f. dec. 8, year 0

i'm happy today is over. i'll be happier when my work shift is over tomorrow. c'mon 1:30 then i will attempt to get christmas cards.. my usual double top secret great card outlet has kind of gone a little less cool christmas cards and a little more gay porn. swear to god.

disappointing.

i've got approx. 23 minutes left of today.

i have to go to the grocery and then pick up mine cats urn/remains. i still have dolly's

(c)remains and my friend suzanne and i are planning a memorial service for our respective lost pets but i don't think i can toss the ashes in the lake or bury them somewhere... cuz like then what .. then were are they?? i know that doesn't make sense but it is a weird feeling... so i'm not sure what we'll opt for .... i wanted to eat a little tiny bit of their ashes... i think it was the native americans or some tribe that did that to keep the deceased with them. i'm kinda for it but who know. best would be save them then when i die and am cremated i will have someone mix all our ashes together, dump it in a garden and plant a tree or something. or of course my fall back plan of having my (c)remains thrown on a crowded RTA bus - just get someone to get on the bus and let it rip all over people. if only i could be there to see their faces. oh well.

on that note i will clean up ma'desk here and get ready to roll.

i hope my friend ron is working tomorrow.... someone needs to yell "its showtime at the apollo" at the end of the day. sometimes i prank call him from my other job and ask "ron what time is it?" and he will yell "its showtime at the apollo"!! love it.

anyhow i wish you all a great, restful, recuprative (like the sleep on a sleep number matress) weekend. cake?

me

thursday december 7, year 0 (and yes next year will also be the year 0 - i just like it)

hello

how goes it for you all?

for me it is slow and steady and o.k. alternating with annoying.

just still sad about jack. i f..ed my back up a little.... either moving the gigantic tv upstairs or hell who knows i've injured myself rolling over in bed so shit if i know - what i do know however, is that it hurts.

other then that... i am of course as always from now till spring praying for a snow day. pray with me one time will you > "jesus, please let me get that early phone call saying that i can go back to bed, i promise i'll try to be a better person if you do, thank you" lets see what happens.

i cannot believe that christmas is so close. it is ooohhh how would you say ... SICKENING. not a fan of the holiday and all that jazz that accompanies it... i will as always fake the funk for the familys sake. the alabama slammer will not be coming to town (bogus), the semi-normal if not all together too normal, freakishly normal group of extended family we usually hang with x-mas evening will be out of town....so its gonna be pretty bare bones... i remember a christmas not too long ago - maybe a year or 2 when it snowed so bad (really not that bad but a little dramatic acting can go a long way!) that i called my family and said "truly i can't even make it out of the driveway" i got off the phone - into my pajamas and had what might be regaled as THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER. (note to self beg jesus for a blizzard on christmas).

other then that... i just got a robert goulet cd - just so i can play "the impossible dream" over the p.a. at school... the children need the inspiration of robert goulet... i think.

anyhow i'm running out of time here at the berry so i must be gone. i will bid you good night (not in the dave "the murph" murphy of the harmonica murphy's way)

have cake, be warm and while i'm talkin to jesus later i'll throw in a good word for you all!

amen,

thea

sunday dec. something year 0
i had to put my cat jack to sleep yesterday.
it all sucks so bad.
me