tuesday
hi
today and yesterday i have lived through the most excruciating (say it with me and announciate.... EXCRUCIATING) pain ever. i've got a root canal related tooth ache. and it has been the kind of pain that while trying to sleep you are curling you toes as if to fight the pain from all extremities... the kind of pain that makes you cry and wimper. the pain that makes you pray for death by mixing many and various left over prescription pain killser with over the counter ones and sleep aids. i went to the GREATEST FUCKING DENTIST EVER OF ALL TIME (email and ask me who it is if you are in need of THE GREATEST FUCKING DENTIST OF ALL TIME) he gave me anti-biotics and pain killers as the first step in treating this horse shit. anyhow i felt a couple shades better by 5:00 then around 8:00 it came back with a vengence.. pain like a gunshot to the jaw. it was the pain that i felt the minute after i broke my leg (heard it snap) but in denial said "oh shit its fine" and tried to stand on it..... BLILNDING FEIRCE SEEING NOTHING BUT A WHITE HAZE kinda pain. but its subsided now and i'm pretty happy but paranoid and fearful of its return. so that was a fun day.
after work i had a little bit of community service with a coupla of the youths of today, and despite tooth pain and my not wanting to do it. i had a recollection of why i actually like my job moment! no specific incident just good kids doing what they were supposed to do, maybe lightening up a little in the process. so big ups to olivia and erika for giving me that when i needed it.
- also reader betwixt you and i, i had a dream not long ago about a gentleman who is loosely affiliated with where i work, it wasn't a hot sex dream like on melrose place.. i think it was just a nice kind of dating, maybe kissing dream. anyhow you know how that gets stuck in your head and you can't help it. well its stuck in my head and now when dude comes to the school i find myself getting like blushy, and a little giggly and stupid!!
i feel like a jackass. and he's probably wondering - "what the fuck is up with her, why is she acting so girlie?". oh well it's kinda fun.
anyhow all, thank you for you support in my pain, i knew if you knew you'd wish me well.
so on that note, i will get ma'water and head off to sleep.
g'night
fea
ps: with all the aforementioned SEARING PAIN, the worst thing was i looked up from having my eyes closed lying on the couch and there was a FUCKING SPIDER sitting, nay mocking me from the middle of the tv screen, to me it seemed as big as the tv itself. and i hated him and killed him - kill bill style yellling "hiiiiiiiiiiiiii yaaaaaaaaaaaaa" (sorry jack, sorry freddy, sorry ghetto squirrel)
hi
today and yesterday i have lived through the most excruciating (say it with me and announciate.... EXCRUCIATING) pain ever. i've got a root canal related tooth ache. and it has been the kind of pain that while trying to sleep you are curling you toes as if to fight the pain from all extremities... the kind of pain that makes you cry and wimper. the pain that makes you pray for death by mixing many and various left over prescription pain killser with over the counter ones and sleep aids. i went to the GREATEST FUCKING DENTIST EVER OF ALL TIME (email and ask me who it is if you are in need of THE GREATEST FUCKING DENTIST OF ALL TIME) he gave me anti-biotics and pain killers as the first step in treating this horse shit. anyhow i felt a couple shades better by 5:00 then around 8:00 it came back with a vengence.. pain like a gunshot to the jaw. it was the pain that i felt the minute after i broke my leg (heard it snap) but in denial said "oh shit its fine" and tried to stand on it..... BLILNDING FEIRCE SEEING NOTHING BUT A WHITE HAZE kinda pain. but its subsided now and i'm pretty happy but paranoid and fearful of its return. so that was a fun day.
after work i had a little bit of community service with a coupla of the youths of today, and despite tooth pain and my not wanting to do it. i had a recollection of why i actually like my job moment! no specific incident just good kids doing what they were supposed to do, maybe lightening up a little in the process. so big ups to olivia and erika for giving me that when i needed it.
- also reader betwixt you and i, i had a dream not long ago about a gentleman who is loosely affiliated with where i work, it wasn't a hot sex dream like on melrose place.. i think it was just a nice kind of dating, maybe kissing dream. anyhow you know how that gets stuck in your head and you can't help it. well its stuck in my head and now when dude comes to the school i find myself getting like blushy, and a little giggly and stupid!!
i feel like a jackass. and he's probably wondering - "what the fuck is up with her, why is she acting so girlie?". oh well it's kinda fun.
anyhow all, thank you for you support in my pain, i knew if you knew you'd wish me well.
so on that note, i will get ma'water and head off to sleep.
g'night
fea
ps: with all the aforementioned SEARING PAIN, the worst thing was i looked up from having my eyes closed lying on the couch and there was a FUCKING SPIDER sitting, nay mocking me from the middle of the tv screen, to me it seemed as big as the tv itself. and i hated him and killed him - kill bill style yellling "hiiiiiiiiiiiiii yaaaaaaaaaaaaa" (sorry jack, sorry freddy, sorry ghetto squirrel)
