wednesday
hi
i cannot believe that i haven't blogged since sunday.. seems like yesterday.
coupla thoughts from today:
**heres a really weird one.. i was watching tv and someone shut a wooden box and the thought that seriously went through my head was "i wish i had a box with a hand in it like thing from addams family".. luckily i was on the phone with carolyn (CAROLYN) so i could tell her that right away - she asked "what would you do with it?" and i said "i'd talk to it"... odd.
** carolyn said the baby was moving around alot and poking her and prodding her and i told her to "go ahead and have it - start pushing now... just do it.... its only 20+ days away anyhow - do it" she opted not to so i then suggested that when the baby's born to poke it and shove it around and yell "how do you like it!!"
** i'm real tired of work...and the chronic bale of shit i have on deck right now.. its like one annoying thing after another sometimes... finish that, help plan this, call them, pick this up, email that, mail this, set this event up, drive people here...ugghhhhhh.
** i want to play hookey (anybody in with me??) i want to cut work, shop, have lunch, go on a drive, take a nap, whatever...
** i'm feeling a general bummed-outedness that has no point of origin - it just is.
**i had a decent dinner - involving barley, black beans, hot sauce, tomatos, mushrooms, more hot sauce... not bad for just throwing a bunch of stuff in a bowl.
** back to the state of bummed-outedness... there is an underlying feeling that if i am jarred even slightly i will explode into a fountain of blood like in the movie kill bill vol.1... know what i mean.. i'm feeling bottled up emotionally i guess and the slightest thing might could set me off on my FALLING DOWNstyled killing spree. (2 movie references in one listed item)
** i'm going to bed now. its actually tomorrow already. thats good.
** i bought this twinkie the kid individual twinkie holder thing... ($1) i don't keep twinkies but its fun to have him around. its funny at the bar - depending on which bar i'm working at the boys will bring my various accoutriments to me... ie: my green hand clapper, my bunny clacker/whistle, my twinkie the kid guy.... and a hand full of mike and ikes for good measure. is it any wonder i enjoy it there.
oh well i'll wish you all the best of luck in getting through the rest of the work week!!
amen,
fea

sunday
hi all.. hey next time i'm making out the bartending schedule like for May.. someone write in to me and say "don't fucking schedule yourself a zillion days in a row--- you'll be sorrrryyyyy!!!!". yea i'm torched. i worked tooo much this week, and today i was at the zoo at the recycling booth for earthday.(YEAH ONE FUCKING STUDENT SHOWED UP!! ONE!!! I'M GLAD FOR THAT ONE.. BUT HOW ABOUT THE 6 OR 7 I CALLED WHO WERE "UH.. SLEEPING" "I THOUGHT IT WAS SATURDAY" "HAVEN'T BEEN HOME FOR 3 DAYS NOT GOING".... ECT... YOU ALL FORMALLY SUCK). i'm sunburned from it... and tired. i did not want to go. i guess i can understand and dig earthday but on the last day of my spring break, when the weather is 75 degrees.. i simply don't want to go.. and just to prove it i tossed a half dozen aluminum cans out the car window full of cigarrette butts and chemical bug killer---(i kid) but i didn't want to be there... love the zoo... but it was one day that i could have owned in its entirety... and i get 1 student who shows up!
i made a point of seeing the lions though...love em' i came up and yelled "hello lions... hi... how are you doing over there!" and waved vigorously... I LOVE THE LIONS.. (betwixt you and me i think the lady lion looked over at me... i think we made eye contact... she reminded me of franny) then i went and yelled hello to the elephants - and, there to i think the one elephant gestured to me with her trunk... love em.
i didn't have time to walk around (despite all day free admission for volunteering...) but i had to drive the one student home.. because he was lying about having to be at work soon after. funny how once the community service is over and we're on our way out he was like "yeah i dont' think i'm gonna go to work today" .. he just wanted to be sure we'd be leaving quickly... whatever ...
alright.. other then that.. highlight of this evening... COOK OUT AT CAROLYN & SAMS... with maj and kiddos and special guest appearance by mark k.! it was nice and fun.
i tried to convince majda's kids that she might indeed be pregnant with a monkey and that it would be sooo fun for them and hey could call him "chippy".
on that note i must sleep.
later,
thea
ps: i bought a bike on friday.... and have yet to take it on a spin.. - don't forget to remember to remind me not to work like a fucking animal... next month!!!