hi it's saturday.
i bartended today... on my leg. not a good idea. i also have to do it again tomorrow. i am afraid to take this boot off tonight because i imagine it will explode to 10x its size due to swelling. oh shit.
work was gay and annoying.
tonight i am heading out with carolyn & sam to dills house - i'm a bit tired hope i don't fall asleep.
oh well like i said i gotta work tomorrow so pray for me that i don't kill myself or anyone else.
have fun
thea

LET YOUR PAIN GUIDE YOU.
this was the advice of my doctor.. when i asked how much walking or trying to walk shall i do with this new boot contraption..... he said "let your pain guide you" - i immediately told him to stay out of my love life - and help me with my damned foot.
oh well. i didn't reblog yesterday - i got all involved with my parents coming over for the birthday dinner etc.
so anyhow i've got this totallly gay boot thing on my leg now: the pros
1. i can take it off
2. i can sleep with a naked leg
3. washing washing washing the leg
4. shaving the leg.
5. it signals the eventual end of this whole misadventure.
con's
1. it's ugly
2. it's ugly
3. it's akward
4. its ugly.
when the doctor sawed off the old cast i was afraid and i felt like crying. once it was off and i realized i couldn't move my ankle or toes and that i had to have physical therapy i did let out a couple tears. when i saw the amazing amount of hair on my leg i cried a little then made any one walking by come look at it. i was an emotional wreck there. i still am. i am frustrated by the whole thing. so enough.
i wrote a poem whilst driving today:

a black and white magazine smashed on the pavement
flapped in the breeze - for a second
i thought it was a seagull and my heart broke.

i'm going to go have some coffee
i love you all.
thea
PS: thank you chris for the totally nice blog for my birthday - another excellent gift!

IT IS WEDNESDAY 11:00 A.M.
i am counting down till my doctors appt. when they will hopefully saw this fucking cast off my leg.
i simply must wash my leg. i must. i don't know what sort of contraption they will put on next but i am so full of excitement, this is going to be one of the best moments of my summer. join hands with me now in hoping whatever comes next is managable, and short lived so i will be back to walking in the reservation lickity split. how have the deers been since i last saw them i wonder? i need to go walking.
let's see chris and i had a lengthy discussion today about what if you had 12 hours to live. fascinating.
i just had some water from my new water purifier pitcher.... sooooo good. man, big ups to water.
o.k. i'm going to go sit on the porch and try to contain my anxiousness....about the big appointment, i'll tell you all what happened when i return home.... thats right... 2 count em 2 blogs in one day!!! ja willing i will be up and down the stairs like arthur treacher.
later,
thea

hi all it's my birthday.
i am 25 years old.
the weather is excellent.
jack is relaxing on the futon next to me.
i had a wonderful hot dog oriented birthday party yesterday.
i got fabulous gifts from fabulous people.
i saw the children.
it was a great birthday.
propers to chris & laurie (donald sutherland poster... unbelievable) - most excellent
carolyn & sam - such great gifts, such a great dinner, such great pie, such amazing friends.
dan & maj - chocolate covered cherries - god bless you, great fun gifts, the best children i've ever been with.
thank you to all listeners for birthday wishes .... i truly appreciate it.
lastly big ups to god for all of the above. g, you're the man now dog.
i'm gonna go sit on the futon with jack and reflect on this perfect day!!!
big love to everyone.
no i'm not high
thea