friday,
today i had a weird feeling. i was at the refridgerator getting the cats food in order.. and this wave of relief came over me.. like life was o.k. - very strange and i can't explain it - i tried to explain it to my mother (waste of my energy there) but just a kind of sigh as if to say "all is in place and fine"... no i was not drinking. and maybe it was solely about the cat food itself - i don't know maybe i have ghosts .... weird.
so tonight was the unveiling of the spencer tunick nude photo at MOCA - i opted out of going.. it was a big deal when the unvieling was on my birfday but now it just seemed like standing on line with a thousand or so people and i wasn't in the mood.. i will go on monday i think, and enjoy it by ma'self... with the appropriate time and space to enjoy it fully. hooray again.
lets see other then that i saw una today.. so cute love her. i styled her hairdoo into a standing up kind of thin mohawk... and made her laugh about nothing. HEY MY FRIEND MICHELE I THINK IS OR HAS HAD HER BABY TODAY!!! i got a message on my machine in the calmest voice (despite being like 2 or so weeks early) "hey its me and neal we're on the way to the hospital i guess i'm gonna have a baby today or at least by tomorrow" WOW... i'm happy for them and can't wait to meet their little girl (Gianna i think..)
anyhow happy weekend all,
love,
me
"in the external scheme of things, the shining moments are as brief as the twinkling of an eye, yet such twinklings are what eternity is made of --moments when human beings can say "i love you", "i'm proud of you" , "i forgive you", "i'm grateful for you." That's what eternity is made of: invisible, imperishable good stuff. - Mister Rogers

wednesday,
so has my buzz from skydiving worn off.. no not really - it's kind of there in my heart... i can't explain it.. its like a dreamy memory that you can quick - link to if you need it.. and that is good because life provides enough piddly annoyance to merit a periodic mental escape.
other then that i got ambushed about working extra hours again and like a deer in head lights i stood perfectly still (prayed my boss was talking to someone maybe standing behind me and didn't see me there at all......) then i blinked.. paused and said... in a very dvvpian way "uh yeah totally..." but what ever.
i had a nice day today... one in which i was positive that god was on my side... i believe that g. is always on my side but sometimes he forces me to handle things, well or badly, but on my own- but today i think i was allowed a freebie. thanks g.
other then that.........
i'll speak to you later, please by all means enjoy your time.
me
ps: always try to pack and extra piece of fruit with you ie: an apple, nectarine, peach, pear (of the hand held variety) then save it for your drive / ride home.. its really a great thing like a treat for putting in your time! go for it!

sunday
hey i had easily one of the TOP 3 best weekends ever! a weekend of full activity-- and right now i cannot remember the other 2 so for now this weekend was #1!
why you ask?
well I WENT SKY DIVING! yep bb fea jumped out of a plane way up in the clouds! was it awesome? yes. did i love it? yes. would i do it again? yes! am i going to do it again? yes! i have photos to share but i'm not sure how to get em in the blog but fret not you'll seem em.
it was so amazing and cool and once again i'm pretty proud of myself. my options for the day (saturday) were... go to target and get some odds and ends done... then maybe roam the lakewood art festival (where if i'm not mistaken, having gone last year, fatness, funnel cakes and french fries are also art!) or go sky diving with mark.. i'm 100% sure i made the right choice!
i had a happy birfday as always. good friends, good food, good cheer it was pretty great so thanks to everyone who made it so.
extra special shout outs to mark, for taking me on this adventure and to fin for being attached to me for the ride.. if only i could've extended it.
i'm off to bed right now.
good night,
and good night to fin, where ever you are!
thea