there was an old white guy in a grey cardigan at the liberry today who opted to use the word "negro" loudly - questionable. then further in conversation with another drunk he decided - what the heck.. i'm gonna work blue for the rest of my set.... yep. this is cleveland public liberry. righteous.
i'm tired.
i've not had a good week.
i told a clerk today that if i wasn't assured that friday would be over soon - i'd kill myself right now. - good times
i'm going to go to bed now... it is important.
i simply do not know what to do about anything... so i will just keep on keeping on.
chris reminded me of a quote i once said "i always have fun... period." i guess i / i'll try. i love when you're bummed / low or ticked and people remind you of how happy go lucky you were/try to be and then when you're UP and delighted they tell you how much more fun, funny and interesting you are when you're bitching about stuff... there is no happy medium in life - i've found. for the most part you spend most of the time trying to see the top of the mountain - and just when you can.. life will come along and smack you hard in the balls and kick your shit back into the valley to start over... and so it goes and so it goes and so it goes.. where its goin' no one knows.
bye
t

wednesday
* i have a skunk farm under my porch but i refuse to let the city "take care of them" - i came literally within 3 inches of petting one thinking it was spencer my stray cat...being unnaturally not shy.... wooops.. but i will say the skunk + buddy didn't care at all that i was there telling them to "please shooo"
* they now have invented a super mega idol for the fat and lazy .. have you seen the commercial for the refridgerator with the tv built in.. so you can stare at the fridge for entertainment... if only they could add on a sofa and a free money dispenser the world would be soo happy. continue rocking fattys- love you and your non-gender f.u.p.a's!
* my lights are flickering although its only raining.
* i had easily one of the top 2 worst days of my life this past weekend, i'm sort of over it.. glossing over it now.... but i will say i was shaken.
* i fully admit i am not perfect nor should i judge others but i will continue to do so - for my own entertainment. as i'm sure others judge me.. circle of life baby.
* my eyes are burning and were so blood shot today (unexplicably - contacts maybe) that people commented...
* my trip to detroit.... ripped from a nightmare not a running from killers one but like a constant discomfort one....
* i will be very very happy when this week is OVER.
* the school i work for had NO phone service today.. doesn't that seem like a bad thing for a school? yeah to me too
* anyhow i'm going to bed, i'm shot.
me

saturday
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i'm tired and have to go to detroit with my parents tomorrow. - holy fucking hell if i ever call upon god to save me. .. it would be right now.
go about doing what you were doing.
me