friday.
praise jesus.
swear to g. thank you for ending this week.
here is a poem i wrote almost at this exact time last year.. i recovered it from the blog archives.. and i like it.. its about produce so you know i'm pumped up:
I HAD A DREAM OF NECTARINESI WONDER DO THEY HAVE DREAMS OF ME ARE THERE LIPS THEY SEE IN GROCERY STORES THAT REMIND THEM OF MINE?DO RANDOM PEOPLE PASS THE FRUIT SECTION WHO SING OR DANCE LIKE ME?DO THEY MISS ME IN THE DARKNESS OF A CLOSED MARKET LATE IN THE NIGHT?DOES THE COOLNESS OF THE STORE REMIND THEM OF MY REFRIDGERATOR?TILL THE END OF MY DAYS I WILL DREAM OF NECTARINES

layla just drooled on my hip.
hows your day?
i spoke to our on staff work psychologist today and she said in response to one of my current annoying situations stuck in my head as "the rudeness of someone to show you the the top of the mountain and kick your ass back to the valley" - thank you mary g. for crystallizing it for me. you da best. of course i don't feel any better but thanks for putting it into a convenient sound byte for me.
hey i hope you all have a great long weekend.
tune into the boogie pop shan't smile thingy ALL monday a.m. instead of us.
rock like foreigner before they got real gay,
thea

haiku of today

highway lights guide me
disappear into nothing
until the next mile

so it goes.
today was ... uh today. i dealt with such stupid people that if i had their names handy i would put them in the blog in huge bold letters so that many many people might know (as if they didn't) how stupid these people are. really stupid. c'mon fake some intelligence just to appease me would you? if you don't mind.
my boss at the 'berry is either psychic or people are telling her that i'm due to blow... as upon leaving today she expressed concern at that being my 13th hour of work ... "gee don't get burned out and quit on us girl!" - a little late my friend.. i'm burned..torched... ect. quitting is just a date on the calendar now. sorry.
so sad.
tragedy of immense proportion has struck someone i am pretty close to.. a murder in fact. how does one bounce back when someone you know and love is MURDERED? who murders people... fucking animals!! i'm still a little beyond understanding the idea of killing someone. the family is torn between how to feel if it was random or purposeful.. either way there is no peace of mind.. they were KILLED. i cannot believe it. how is this day to day life. someone i knows sister was MURDERED last year.. its like - are you fucking kidding me? are we really living among such savages. soooo sad. dear world.. sorry you are so totally fucked up and filled with violent animals.. shouldn't have to happen.
i remain in the bowels of despair.
me

sunday
hi
Q: looking forward to this week what do i have in store?????????
A: Annoyance
you betcha.
i think i seriously am going to take up smoking. it seems smoking might make a good friend for me now. i'm in to it.. any one have a particular brand to recommend to me? i'm open for suggestions. i see they were marketing chocolate and fruit "flavored" ciggarettes to blacks but how do you flavor smoke? hmmmm i'm really giving this consideration. it would give me something to look forward to throughout the day (aside from death and sleep) and a buddy who would go where ever i go!
lets see. other then that i'm tired.
i had my job interview on friday... i'll talk about it on the good time monday morning happy friends show starring smoker bbfea. it was weird. i left feeling like i was put through a grinder although they were so light and airy about it i'm sure they had no clue how close i was to tears or vomiting the whole time. geeeez what happened to questions like "so why might you like to work with us?". holy shit.
anyhow i'll talk more tomorrow a.m.
me

sunday
hi
Q: looking forward to this week what do i have in store?????????
A: Annoyance
you betcha.
i think i seriously am going to take up smoking. it seems smoking might make a good friend for me now. i'm in to it.. any one have a particular brand to recommend to me? i'm open for suggestions. i see they were marketing chocolate and fruit "flavored" ciggarettes to blacks but how do you flavor smoke? hmmmm i'm really giving this consideration. it would give me something to look forward to throughout the day (aside from death and sleep) and a buddy who would go where ever i go!
lets see. other then that i'm tired.
i had my job interview on friday... i'll talk about it on the good time monday morning happy friends show starring smoker bbfea. it was weird. i left feeling like i was put through a grinder although they were so light and airy about it i'm sure they had no clue how close i was to tears or vomiting the whole time. geeeez what happened to questions like "so why might you like to work with us?". holy shit.
anyhow i'll talk more tomorrow a.m.
me