Tuesday April 9th.
I have a sick cat. i don't know what to do. i don't feel equipt mentally or emotionally to make life or death decisions for her. i am feeling low and sickened by the whole thing.
- i have 44+(give or take a few) days of work left.... life is beautiful in that area.
- i love Michael Moriarty on law & order. his character... fantastic. not that i don't love sam waterston... but there are moments of sheer magic with mr. moriarty.
-my homeless friend marvin b. came to see me on opening day... i usually see him every time i work and i must say ... i adore him.. and i wish there were a way i could help him have a better life.... but for now i give him extra $$, free pop and food and my best wishes.... i don't know what else i can offer. he's a dear dear man.
-i'm glad to be making $$ at the bar again.... i purchased flowers today for my garden/yard... the theme this spring/summer..... "how many god damned flowers come in pink?" i'm getting them.
- i saw my brain doctor today... she's so nice (i guess that's the job of being with crazy people) we're upping my medication... hopefully i won't become a drooling zombie and by the same token i won't shoot the mailman either... delicate balance is all i ask.
-THE RINGER - back in full effect. i love it. i took a week off for vacation/end of diet living/ whatever and realized i NEED the program
-i'm still a bit lonely... i want to do things. i want to drive in the car on a sunday afternoon with a human being - and have lunch and 'rap on the phone, and do stuff. i feel like a total fag for feeling like this i guess it's being 25+ - and the natural desire to "nest" or whatever... as i so frequently deny my age the desire to establish human contact and the admission of it is - frightening, sickening, exciting, loathesome, odd, hopeful.
-i am going to order chris a monkey blanket so as to cure all that plagues him. - don't belive it'll work... you're a stupid son of a bitch.
-lastly, hey and much love to the welk, sam, dan & maj - if you're gonna establish a core group of folks to be with forevever - i reccommend these guys whole heartedly......... i'm a reference for their kick ass-ed-ness.
alright, i will sign off say good night and as always pray for a better tomorrow.
i work for the tribe game so pray for $$$$$$$$
later gators
I have a sick cat. i don't know what to do. i don't feel equipt mentally or emotionally to make life or death decisions for her. i am feeling low and sickened by the whole thing.
- i have 44+(give or take a few) days of work left.... life is beautiful in that area.
- i love Michael Moriarty on law & order. his character... fantastic. not that i don't love sam waterston... but there are moments of sheer magic with mr. moriarty.
-my homeless friend marvin b. came to see me on opening day... i usually see him every time i work and i must say ... i adore him.. and i wish there were a way i could help him have a better life.... but for now i give him extra $$, free pop and food and my best wishes.... i don't know what else i can offer. he's a dear dear man.
-i'm glad to be making $$ at the bar again.... i purchased flowers today for my garden/yard... the theme this spring/summer..... "how many god damned flowers come in pink?" i'm getting them.
- i saw my brain doctor today... she's so nice (i guess that's the job of being with crazy people) we're upping my medication... hopefully i won't become a drooling zombie and by the same token i won't shoot the mailman either... delicate balance is all i ask.
-THE RINGER - back in full effect. i love it. i took a week off for vacation/end of diet living/ whatever and realized i NEED the program
-i'm still a bit lonely... i want to do things. i want to drive in the car on a sunday afternoon with a human being - and have lunch and 'rap on the phone, and do stuff. i feel like a total fag for feeling like this i guess it's being 25+ - and the natural desire to "nest" or whatever... as i so frequently deny my age the desire to establish human contact and the admission of it is - frightening, sickening, exciting, loathesome, odd, hopeful.
-i am going to order chris a monkey blanket so as to cure all that plagues him. - don't belive it'll work... you're a stupid son of a bitch.
-lastly, hey and much love to the welk, sam, dan & maj - if you're gonna establish a core group of folks to be with forevever - i reccommend these guys whole heartedly......... i'm a reference for their kick ass-ed-ness.
alright, i will sign off say good night and as always pray for a better tomorrow.
i work for the tribe game so pray for $$$$$$$$
later gators
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