wednesday,
well today is over. i worked at the 'berry all day ... i thought it was going to be mind numbingly boring but it was actually pretty busy and time went by pretty quickly. which is what we all pray for in a death. anyhow whilst work wasn't so bad ...i must say my nerves are shot... and if i had a nickle for every time i wanted to scream "jesus christ... leave me the hell alone" i wouldn't have to work for a while. not so much the patrons but just well meaning co-workers... not their fault it was me i was simply not in the mood and WISH TO BE LEFT ALONE for fuck sake.. there is a girl with whom i work.. and i know she likes me and we get on fairly well ... as well as one can get on with a totally bi-polar... psycho.. but today she was on me like friggin glue... i had to ask her peers to get her away from me before i said something mean. i am in desperate need of SOLITUDE. ugggg it was awful it was like having a parrot that liked to sit on your shoulder and recite nonsense....
BUT alas it is finished.
manana i work an abbreviated schedule and will have time with UNA.
other then that its all bullshit family obligations that will drive me to the brink of insanity for the next coupla days so pray for me and i'll pray for you. and i'll see you on the other side of christmas.
love love love,
me