hi its tuesday.
who cares.
what's my problem that i repel the people i wish to date? i must be a gorgon.
today was pretty good... work was low impact and life was good.
hung out with chris which makes the balance in my life. thank you c. murder jr.
i've mentioned the mantra "your life is garbage" before... and i hear it again and again in my head....i don't fancy myself a suicidal person....seems too much. but i do however, consistantly pray for the end. i guess that's bad... mainly because i haven't made any preparations... i'll get it in writing: in case of my "untimely death"
1. carolyn and sam must take the cats.
2. my personal possessions should go as "whoever wants 'em gets em"
3. letters found (in a box in the closet) should be burried with me
4. any money i have in savings or whereever... goes to mikey and nola valerian.. but only if they promise to wear a cowboy hat now and again.
5. creamate me and take my ashes and throw them into a crowded bus going down town.. just step on and toss em over and at people.... how fun is that for a last time practical joke.... i cling to that one.
i hope your week is good and fine.
talk to you soon
thea