wednesday
hi
i hate christmas.. actually upon thinking about it.. i actually really like christmas and all that it involves i just HATE MY SPECIFIC CHRISTMAS and the experience it entails. i pep talk myself constantly from now till then saying "o.k. it's just a few hours of a coupla days ... you can do this... go buy some meaningless garbage, put your time in go home and pray to get snowed in" sad. yea i like christmas. heres a weird one.. i was watching A CHRISTMAS CAROL (the patrick stewart version - amongst my top 5) anyhow literally 33 minutes into the movie i was sobbing... yep one stoney b. sobs. and pretty much consistently with little break (except for commercials but i'd pick back up after the commercial) how weird is that??? when i saw it was on t.v. i thought to myself - oh i should call carolyn & sam and we could watch it together and be festive or whatever but in retrospect.. thank god i didn't i cannot weep like that in front of them. and i guarantee even if i watched it every day i would cry every day. MENTAL. TOTALLY MENTAL.
carolyn and sam went to see what style baby they were having this after noon and the baby was sitting in a ball on it's stomach so they couldn't tell.... i tried to tell her to have some chilli and fizzy pop to get the kid moving around but oh well... now it's still a mystery. zsa zsa? or herod? we don't know.
and i had a pommegranit.
good night
fea
my christmas carol tops list
1. the alaistair simm version
2. the patrick stewart version
3. the mister magoo version
4. the george c. scott version
5. i don't know